The wall
Well I’ve hit the wall. I first saw it there, not too far down the road, Wednesday late afternoon/evening when my in-laws were here for the Boychen’s birthday and I could feel it all starting to be too much. Too many people in the house. Too many conversations to keep track of. (Yeah, with only four verbal people in the room there were too many conversations to keep track of. I’d call that a wall.) Just too much. Thursday morning I woke up, got out of bed and smacked right into that wall. All I could think about was just making it to Small Boy’s bed-time. I made it through the day without losing it, though it certainly wasn’t the most graceful exhibition of parenting skills. I am exhausted and just tired to death of coordinating the morning and the evening single-handedly. R comes back tonight- after bedtimes, more’s the pity – and then I plan on going on a serious mama sabbatical.
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You deserve a sabbatical if ever a mama did! I can’t imagine that many days alone at home with the kids. The most I’ve ever done is 8 days alone with 1 kid… With two of them, I hardly survive the evenings my husband comes home from work late! Doing it solo so long, putting together a birthday party, AND keeping up with NaBloPoMo? You’re Superwoman.
I agree, you ARE superwoman. My sister became a single mother of three under 6 and I am IN AWE of her. I guess you rise to the challenge, whatever the challenge may be. Well done for surviving temporary single motherhood. At the very least you’ve earned a glass of wine and a large block of chocolate, brought to you on a tray laden with red roses whilst you soak in a tub.
I read the blog of a woman whose husband died suddenly when their second son was one month old. Her boys are now four and one year old; she works full time, comes home to take care of the boys, never seems to get a break, and grieves for her husband. And then I realize how lame I am. I mean, it was hard but it was finite.